The Fear of Letting Go

I have found myself wondering, how letting go would help oneself. With that thought process I of course, was not doing any footwork, as I was very afraid to let go.

The fear of letting go ( in this case, an individual ) was far to strong. It seemed it would captivate me, thinking that if I let go, what else would I know? The fear of the unknown. The fear of the comfortable feeling that I knew so well. The fear of how hard will this next step be. The plain ole fear.

Than, I find myself realizing, the fear with all of the above thoughts and more, was taking alot of needed energy. Energy that I need to motivate myself through out the day. Energy that I need to run after two small Children. Energy that I need to do my workouts. Energy needed to eat, drink, sleep and keep up on my well being. Alot of my energy being, shall we say, wasted in FEAR.

After realizing that my energy was being wasted and that the fear of letting go was way more overpowering than it needed to, I realized, why not just let go? Seriously, could you be more hurt than you already have? Probably not, if so, you made it through this part of your life, I am pretty sure you will make it through a hella lot more.

After letting go, it seems that the energy that I was wasting, has been able to be put to good use!!

Not only the energy that I was wasting, but the serenity that I was blocking, seemed to flow back in! It was a beautiful thing!! To be able to see the miracles that sit right in front of me, to be able to enjoy the moment as it is - Not as I would have it!! How Amazing!! The joy of letting go!!!!!!

I do not know what the whole entirety of letting go will entail, BUT, I do KNOW that it has been a freeeing experience. I just wish I had not waited so long!!

Now that I am outta the way -- The REAL miracle will prevail!!!

**Just need to keep letting go and NOT take it back ( theres the key )